You ever go to a conference, vacation, or trip and felt like you had the most incredible time of your life? Well, that just happened to me this past weekend. I went to a training in Missouri. I was encouraged by the lord. I felt challenged by the lord, which made me question some of my future choices. Friends prayed over me and encouraged me to keep going in this challenging season. I met new friends who made me laugh, had deep conversations, and prayed over me. I haven't experienced this high in a long time. It was good, I felt alive, and most of all, I felt in my element. I experienced a high, but what do you do when the high starts to settle? Now I'm back in my hometown. Things seemed dull, and I felt like I was missing something. I needed a genuine connection. Community is what I didn't have in my hometown. It was such a blessing to be seen and loved by a group. I had a spiritual high. The people demonstrated what the community was supposed to do. The community prays, eats together, has fun, and meets the needs of each other. I had a hard time adjusting from having a group of people that resembled for a week to not having nobody to be in a community within my hometown. Coming down from the high, I remember what I don't have and wish I had here in my hometown. As I settle back into my home, I begin remembering responsibilities, fears, insecurities, and the mundane activities that I have to do. How do I get over my high and move forward in the present? How do I get over this high?
Posting on social media sounds superficial, but I posted my favorite pictures and trip moments. Taking photos is a great way to remember that moment forever. One of my favorite quotes is this "Photos are a return ticket to a moment otherwise gone" When I look at that memory, it's not about the high and how it's gone, but it is about that moment and how good it was. When I look at those photos, what comes to my mind is what God did for me at that moment. Staying present and hopeful is good. Once we have that high, it's easy for us to want to live in the past. Admitting that this incredible moment was in the past, it reminded me of some great moments I have now. The truth is I also have some great things going on in the present. Staying in the present gives me hope for the future that God can bless me with the community here too. I can have that spiritual high if I have faith and believe God is my provider. He sees and knows my needs. Lastly, surrender my thoughts, emotions, and high to God. I have many questions for God: why can't I have this same experience here in my hometown? Why is it that the connections I've made are far away, and why does it feel like God isn't providing my needs now? The truth is He is, and He is good in every season. I'm also reminded of this prayer that helps me move forward and trusting in God.
God, grant me the Serenity
To accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things I can,
And Wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as the pathway to peace.
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it.
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His will.
That I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with Him forever in the next.